We are now a family of 5!
I have to say it's not as hard as I anticipated.
Now let me clarify that statement: it actually is ALOT of work and I'm REALLY tired and the juggling is ENDLESS, but with the right perspective it's manageable.
Its been a smoother transition to baby #3 for several reasons:
1. I am not returning to nearly as many hours of work as I was with my other kids
2. My older kids are in camp for a good portion of the day.
and I think the most important reason:
3. I am not resentful of the changes a new baby brings.
I remember with my first child I was resentful that I had to hold and nurse her so much.
I was angry that I wasn't able to eat a meal like a civilized human. I often ate cold food with one hand. Or if I had both hands available I worried about spilling food on the little head that peaked out of the baby carrier.
I was frustrated that I couldn't leave my house when I wanted to
and of course all I wanted to do was SLEEP!
These feelings lessened with my second daughter and now with my son, these feelings although present at times have nearly disappeared.
I still hold and nurse him almost all day
I still eat like a caveman: I just finished eating cold sweet potato right out of the skin--I practically slurped it out :)
I am still pretty home bound
I still don't sleep
But the difference is I have willingly accepted this new reality.
The work is hard, but like my mother says, "Be thankful that you can do it!"